No More Despair

The road to truly understanding grace can be a long one. I know I’m still on it. One thing that’s become fresh to me over the past couple of years is God’s Fatherly love toward His children. As a goal-oriented recovering people-pleaser, I tend to focus on my role as a servant of God. I imagine Him setting out tasks (of increasing difficulty) for me, and expecting results.

A while after my ex-husband left me, as I was getting up from the metaphorical ground, I started to assume that, now that I was a single person with no one to “serve,” God would expect more from me than ever. I assumed I ought to be mentoring inner-city children and running soup kitchens (not that I particularly want to do those things). I felt guilty for so much freedom to do what I wanted, even for those days when I was only capable of going to work and then spending the evening in front of the TV. Sometimes it took effort just to take care of myself, but it didn’t feel like “enough.”

My friend Laura referred me to a scene in Return of the King that helped her during a similar time in her life. I was reminded of it last weekend when the movie was on TV. In this short scene, Eowyn, the courageous noblewoman of Rohan, is experiencing a lot of grief and frustration – over the rejection by and loss of the man she loves, the inability to go into battle for her people, and the enormity of the darkness they’re all facing. Her uncle/adopted father, Theoden, finds her in a bleak mood and speaks comfort over her.

Eowyn: What other duty would you have me do?
Theoden: Duty? No… I would have you smile again. Not grieve for those whose time has come. You shall live to see these days renewed. No more despair.

This exchange goes straight to my heart every time and feels very personal. It reminds me that I am God’s daughter, and He cares about both my grief and my happiness even more than my earthly father would. He counts my tears in His bottle (Psalms 56:8). I believe that sometimes God wants His children to raise their eyes beyond duty, to be still and allow Him to bring them hope, take away their despair, and cause them to smile again. He wants us to rest in Him for a while. I believe I’m in that kind of season now. I am smiling again, and it’s because He’s lavishing His love on me with His presence and so many unnecessary blessings. I have hope that I will see my days renewed, and in the long run, I’ll be able to serve Him better because of this time of rest and strengthening.

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6 Responses to No More Despair

  1. //nancy says:

    this is amazingly beautiful. love what God is doing in your life, lady.

  2. bluiis says:

    That was beautiful, both what you wrote and the little clip. I still haven’t seen those movies (I know, have I been living under a rock?), but I’ve read the books and love them.

  3. R says:

    Oh! Now you’re making me want to watch that movie … :)

  4. Catherine says:

    This is a beautiful and true post. I love it. And LOTR. <3 Allowing ourselves time to grieve is so tough since there's so much that happens below the surface and others can't see the needed healing that's taking place. I'm glad you're healing <3

  5. Steph says:

    Thank you for sharing this post. Praise the Lord for the continuous work He is doing in our hearts. This was a great reminder!

  6. ladygoat says:

    Wow, it’s all so true! Days renewed… that’s EXACTLY it!

    lots of love to you – this was an excellent post!

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