One Word 2015: Enough

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Two years ago, I stopped attempting to do New Year’s resolutions and hopped on the One Word 365 train. The idea is that you choose one word to guide you throughout the year, and however that plays out in your life is up to you. For me, it starts with paying attention. I keep my eyes open for the concept in conversations, books, music, movies, the Bible, things that happen to me or my friends. I pin stuff and write myself notes. I look for whatever the word is trying to teach me.

My 2013 word was Focus. It was a concept I needed at the time, but I never got very enthusiastic about it. Last year was a totally different story. I felt strongly about my 2014 word, Alive, and there’s no doubt that applying and exploring it changed my life. It was a rich, exciting, mostly fun word. I was sorry to see it go. Even so, I already knew my 2015 word. It started jumping out at me as far back as last summer, and it feels as right and timely as Alive did.

Enough:

– As much as is necessary or wanted; in the amount or to the degree needed; sufficient; satisfying.

I am convinced that believing I am enough is crucial for a healthy, peaceful, and impactful life. I’m unhappiest and most self-centered when I feel hopelessly not enough, and sometimes those thoughts beat down on me like a hailstorm. I want to get back to a place of solid, consistent assurance that I am enough, in Christ and in who I was made to be, even when people who matter to me don’t agree and it hurts.

I also want to feel more assured that I have enough for each day. Living from a perspective of scarcity will make you crazy (even though in some cases scarcity is a fact – I still don’t know what to do with this). Big-picture thinking will make you crazy. No, I am not okay with lacking certain things for the rest of my life, but I’m not responsible for the rest of my life right now. It’s time to renew my contentment with the right now. The daily bread. The abundance that’s right in front of me.

(This section brought to you by my guru, Dr. Brene Brown.)

– Something you say when you want something to stop, or to indicate that you understand and there is no need to say any more.

It has come to my attention that I am seriously burned out. I’ve been going nonstop and not building any whitespace into my life for, well, ever, and my entire being is letting me know it has had enough. The insanity has to stop. The holiday break from everything has helped, but it’s going to take more than two or three weeks to get me to 100%. In fact, I’m not sure I’ve ever seen 100%. I have to learn how to live fully while also giving myself room to breathe, and how to say no more often. And if I really believe I am enough (definition 1), I’ll feel less pressure to perform, work at being exciting and sparkly, or be The Dependable One in every one of my many involvements. Different strategies won’t fix it – I’ve tried that a million times. I have to be different. I’ve actually made progress with this over the years, and realize it’s a lifelong battle, but a significant shift needs to take place this year.

I’ve also had enough of being stuck in important areas of my life. My patience as I know it has run out. Once I’m revived enough to act instead of react, maybe I’ll know how to get unstuck.

All this might appear selfish and self-centered, but it’s not. I want to help people, love well, and be a positive influence, and I can’t do it if I’m feeling insecure and running myself into the ground. Put on your own oxygen mask before assisting others, etc.

This won’t be an easy word, but I feel excited and hopeful about it. I also chose a verse for the year, or I should say it chose me (I wasn’t looking for it):

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I’ll be writing about my Enough journey throughout the year, and I already have some thoughts. Get ready! And if you’ve chosen a word too, tell me about it.

(PS: You better believe I already have an Enough Pinterest board!)

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21 Responses to One Word 2015: Enough

  1. thebeccaoh says:

    I love it! I think this year will be just as exciting for both of us. :)

  2. I love this. I wasn’t sure where you were going with your word, but I love the direction you chose!

  3. Jazmine says:

    I like the idea of keeping track of how the word is guiding you throughout the year. I hope the journey is insightful. :)

  4. Laura says:

    Very cool. You have once again chosen the perfect word for you! I’m looking forward to reading more!

  5. Milissa says:

    I’m totally with you. Everything except the “selfish” part. And this is just a semantics thing ;) …but I think everyone SHOULD be selfish…it is very important to take care of one’s self. We get into trouble when we become literally “selfless”…giving too much of ourselves away. It annoys me to the millionth degree that our culture has somehow twisted the true definitions of these words. I might just have to blog about it. Ha.

    Love you word. I should use this one too. I’m really into “simplify” right now. I’ll have to write more about that too.

    I just discovered Brene Brown. I’m reading Daring Greatly and now everything she has written is on my list. There were a couple of sections that spoke to me so strongly I actually had to close the book fir a minute…it was like she knew me. Weird. And so awesome.

  6. Kristy says:

    You are enough. I don’t know how I came to your blog, but as someone who is also in her mid 30s and single, and struggling with the possibility that this might be my endgame, your words have touched me deeply. I have not been in touch with my faith at all, but have increasingly been drawn back to it. I just wanted to thank you for your honesty and for sharing your journey. You have touched me and I am sure you have touched others. Don’t discount your power.

  7. Kathy Russell says:

    Ahh! I had a nice response typed out but Facebook went bonkers and I lost it. My original would be post was the most amazing thing, but now I’m just going to say I like your post and your word and look forward to seeing how it plays out.

  8. Carol says:

    Excellent thoughts. I think this word is going to be perfect for you this year, and I really hope that this year brings you much peace as God works through you.

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  10. Rachel G. says:

    Hey Brenda, I just found your blog today and I got really excited when I saw that your word for the year is the same as the one I chose! I am also using both meanings of the word, which seem like they have so much possibility…and challenge. Thanks for writing about this!

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